Sunday, May 16, 2010

Ever try to re-invent who you are?

I have an itch that I need to scratch, but I can't. It's not a physical thing, otherwise I'd go get the anti-itch cream :0)

I'm getting bored with who I am. I have a great husband and 2 great kids. My husband works hard to provide for our family, especially now that I'm out of work. He supports my desire to turn my sewing and crocheting hobby into a business, too. But I'm still bored.

I feel like I need a change of scenery, I'm restless.

I have plans to grow a large garden with my kids, we will be planting in the next 2 weeks. I'll have that to tend to everyday. Once the produce is ready, the kids and I (ok, well mostly me) will can and pickle them...bake things with them and then freeze them. But I still feel like I'm missing something.

My sisters call to me as “the good one”. Maybe that has something to do with why I became a paralegal? But sometimes I'm too ethical (or good) for my own good!

I can't even do simple things like leave the shopping cart in the next spot if it's too far to lug the kids back to the cart bin. Yup, I will unload the cart, walk the cart and 2 small kids to return the cart, then lug the kids back to the car.

I don't want to be know as the person to go to if you need a contract written.

I don't want to be know as the person to go to if you need something baked or cooked.

I'm so sick of being stuck in this too small house...I'm sick of being out of work...I'm sick of my back hurting all the time.

I want to move somewhere warm...somewhere that it doesn't snow (yeah, almost 4 feet of snow this year, normal snow fall amount? Less than 6 inches)

I want something different...but I'm not sure what that is.

1 comment:

  1. It's perfectly normal to feel that way. Sometimes I want to reinvent myself, too, but just don't know how. It's something that's been bothering me ever since my last birthday.